may I be Frank ?

belief..could this be true?

I think my hair has stopped falling out as much.

I used to put my hand through it and 5-10 strands would come out. Now I get 1 or 2 sometimes.
My acupuncture lady put heat on some acupuncture points for alopecia last week and this week it's improved.

Now is this because I believe it has worked and so I am looking for hairs on the pillow less, pulling my hair more gently?

Who knows.
The whole alternative and complementary therapy world is relatively new to me and I'm from a sceptical background. All I know is my yoga teacher knew I was seriously ill before any doctor did.

Hmmm....food for thought

ps. I know I've been quiet, I've been germinating a few thought pieces but I'm not there yet.

In London no one can hear you scream...

Me and the wig went out again today. Think I might call her Gloria.
Realised in London NO ONE cares what you wear,what you look like, no one even looks twice.

Seeing people you know a bit is more weird - they talk a little faster and are not sure where to look.

Today/Tomorrow I find out if I am to be a complete baldy, Mr Consultant will decide whether to change my drugs - I think he will because my blood test result was 43 which means the graph is flat. I am not getting any worse but I'm not getting any better.

So Gloria and I will be going out more together.

a red letter day

I always wondered what that actually means but thought I would wear red just in case, for strength. I wore pink on monday and it just didn't work for me. The anticipation of going to meet the new consultant was palpable. Like the worst type of waiting for exam results. Here I am, anticipating:

The 9 minutes I waited for the train to London Bridge seemed to go on forever
Wait Wait Wait
Then waiting to see the consultant
Then I will be waiting 3 cycles to see if these new drugs work

So...shiny new consultant oncologist said:
- good news is the cancer has got smaller since the last scan
- bad news is the platinum drugs have almost certainly stopped working
- good news is I can try some different ones which may or may not work
- bad news is my hair will definitely fall out completely

don't want you to think I'm vain but some how looking sick as well as being sick is doubly bad

Good news is my boyf is coming from back Italy to see me...tonight!
The things a girl has to do to get attention from a boy eh?

why did my hair have to fall out yesterday?

I know it's inevitable but I just wish it hadn't happened yesterday cos I had such a bad day.

I first noticed my hair thinning a while back - it bothered me at first but I realised how lucky I'd been. 12 weeks with almost a full head of hair. Most people go bald within days or weeks. Yesterday it properly started falling out in my hands.