fading out

A few months ago I talked to a lady who had had the same cancer as me. She talked about feeling like she was dying and coming back to life during chemotherapy. I couldn't understand what she ment at the time.

I feel like I'm having the life sucked out of me whilst they try to make me better.

It is really hard to eat anything when you have taken major anti-sickness tablets because they shut your system down. When it starts working again there are terrible stomach cramps. Don't tell me to eat fibre, I'm on a low fibre diet.

Geez

I feel so weak.

Cancer doctors talk about something called "side effect profile" of chemotherapy drugs and want to know that you are "tolerating the treatment well". I now understand how people get so weak, it's not the cancer particularly, it's the lack of food.

I find this all very frustrating because I can't do anything especially not sleep. I want to enjoy the time I have to buy xmas presents and I can't even get to the shops.

Hmmpf
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Comments

[kirsty]

How long did they say you'd feel like this?
Is there a date in the future you can look forward to, where you might be able to start feeling the life seeping back in?
I send you :hugs: and hope you start feeling better soon.

[Daisy-Winifred]

As someone who has to take medication that gets stuck up under lip, stuck up bottom and pushed in by needle, all to stop sickness, I do know what you mean about the system closing down and then opening up again with ballons and fireworks all set floating and firing in the confines of belly.

I'm fortunate that fibre isn't off the menu completely but sometimes that makes things worse rather than better so can understand why its a no no with you at present. a friend who underwent similar chemo went to a Homeopath in the end and she found he not only was able to help her with the nausea in fact it stopped but really helped her digestion - just a thought.

Ice cream is my life saver as you know but that's a no no when I've been taking lots of anti sickness drugs as it just makes everything worse but I have found jelly does ok and it's amazing what can actually be put into it that to make it pretty good as a food source. Maybe that's where those meaty jellies came to the fore in Jane Austins time. Hey just get Darcy to sweep you off for a little calfs foot jelly - maybe not :0)